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Name: Laura
Gender: Female
Interests: Hanging out with Jon, going to the mall, watching movies, singing, going to church, colorguard, chillin' with my friends, soccer, lacrosse, basketball, and listening to music.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
AIM:  jonluvsme_19
Member Since:
3/25/2004
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| It's been forever since I have written. Well, Jon. Not a whole lot has changed about the way I feel about you. I really want to hang out with you. I wish you would just call me though if you aren't going to be home when you say you are going to be. Not trying to sound mean, but I do hang around thinking that you may call me back to say sorry. I never hear from you though. I got two free movie tickets. I don't care who pays, all I want to do is spend time with you. I miss you alot. Maybe if I get a hold of you we can hang out spring break. PLEASE call me sometime soon. It would make me really happy. I really need to talk to you. | | |
| Jon, I still love you so much. I miss you so much it hurts. It is so hard without you. Listen , I know I changed. It took me forever to see, but that person is fading now. I don't know them anymore. I need you to know I love you Jon. I want to say it over and over again to you. Everytime I think about what we had I cry. I cry because I was so happy with you. I cry because I can still remember your laugh, your smile, and the way you kissed me. But most of all I cry because your not mine anymore. I wish I could change back time. But I know I can't. Life was so wonderful when you came into my world. There's not a night that goes by that I don't dream of you. You seem so real and I wake up and your not there. I just wanted to say how much I care and I mean it from the bottom of my heart. I'll never grow out of these feelings for you. Looking in your eyes I see a paradise. I've loved you forever. Please be with me. Take my word, my heart, my soul, my life. Take all of me. Because I need you to so bad. | | |
| I wrote this poem in dedication to Jonathan Ross Baker. I love you still so much. I kind of suck at poetry, but I mean every word of it from the bottom of my heart. It's called "I Just Wanted To Let You Know."
I just wanted to let you know
The sky is dark, one glimmer of the stars
it reminds me of your face
a shine of panten gold
your deep blue eyes how they devour me so
I miss everything that belonged to us
your laugh , your kiss, your touch
This feeling of heart ache won't go away
it chooses to linger and stay
The thoughts of you drain me from my sleep
memories of us I'll always keep
so dear to my heart and with every tear that comes
the hurt, the pain, the stain
I want to be with you,
every beat pulls me through
I just wanted to let you know.
There's not a day that passes by
that I don't cry
because your not mine,
God really crafted a perfect gem,
the twinkle in your eye will always glow
I just wanted to let you know
your voice captures my soul,
the sweet rush so divine,
you placed your hand in mine.
I want you to hold me in arms,
the place I always use to be,
I don't want another there
only me. You said once the word forever
that was to be your endeavor
I just wanted to let you know
you have my heart,
I still love you and I always will
I just want you to be here,
with me still
yours forever,
Laura Eileen Zitzewitz-Gonroff | | |
| Last night at church I cried. I cried out to God. It's so hard without you. My friends tried to comfort me, but it's not much when I wanted you there holding me instead of them. I was so confused. I asked God all these questions and all I could do was cry. So I did. I cried for everything that had ever happened. Every happy moment we shared, every gloomy day that hung over us, everytime I looked at your eyes, and when I thought about how much I still love you and how much I miss your presence. I sobbed even more. God Jon, I really need you. I really do. | | |
| Jonathan:
You really turn my world. Today I went to your folder in my e-mail and read every single e-mail you have ever written me. I couldn't help but cry. I miss you so much. Everytime something bad happens I wish you were here so you could hold me in your arms. I always find a reason to cry about us. I really want to be with you. I went to Seattle this Thursday and went up into the Space Needle. The view blew my mind. You wanna know the first thing that came to my mind ?...wow, this doesn't even compare to Jon. Wishing you could have been there with me. I always hold a picture of us close to me at night and think about everything that went wrong...sniff...I wanted to make you so happy. I am so sorry I failed you. Your always in my dreams and you seem so real. But then I wake up and your not there. I don't want to let you go Jon. I love you. I love you. I love you. I'll never get tired of saying it b/c it is true. You told me along time ago that you totally trusted me. Laura Zitzewitz. You have to believe me Jon. I'm so lost without you. | | |
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